Real Talk #5. Walk it Out.

Do you ever talk to someone and they tell you a huge story about how God told them exactly what He wants them to do? I have. Honestly, I feel uncomfortable when that happens. Maybe it's because I have never ever had that happen to me...And to be completely real with you, I don't expect that to ever happen to me.

Last year, I prayed for Abba to show me what school to go to... I literally prayed night and day about it...I asked for a clear sign, and I didn't get one. I narrowed it down between a state university, a Christian college, and Uganda. He didn't tell me which one was His plan. He just said, "Do something." I answered, "But which one?" His answer came through a peace about EVERY.SINGLE.ONE.OF.THEM.

Sometimes, I think that we complicate things. We act like we don't know what He wants, so we live our lives just trying to figure out exactly what He wants us to do in the future. And He is shouting, "JUST DO SOMETHING! You are so caught up in future plans that you forget that I have a plan for today...My plan is for you to love Me and love others...That's it. Just go somewhere and do it...Uganda, India, the Philippines, Mexico, Seattle, New York City, Knoxville, wherever...Just do it!"

Sure, I think that some people get called to a specific country or job...But, I haven't been so far. I haven't experienced some CRAZY sign telling me where to go... All I know is that He wants me to LOVE. I keep asking where He wants me to put my love into action, and He just keeps whispering, "Go with your heart on this...I will use you anywhere."

I believe that when we are truly seeking His plan, living in His word, and obeying Him, we can trust the desires of our hearts...

All I have ever known is that I am called to live ABOVE the norm. I am called to love Him, love others, and change the world. I think He wants me to love the orphans of the world because I have dreams about it and sometimes I wake up in the middle of the nights, and James 1:27 and Proverbs 31:8-9 just come to mind...I think I am going to be a writer one day because I love writing and telling stories through written words. I trust that His plans are bigger than mine. They always are. I think that He may be preparing me to give up everything to love Him and others. That's all I know. When it comes down to it, His plan for me is just LOVE.

So, daily, I want to live this out...I don't want to wait til the future to start...I will start today.